In True Aina Fashion,..

Remorse is washing over me, alongside guilt. For the (uncharacteristically?) harsh tone I used in the previous post. Tapi ntah la people, I'm tired. And very angry. Usually I'd be able to get over somethin' quickly. But with this, no way. I've kept quiet about this for so long kan?

Come on la people, why can you treat other people with respect, but when it comes to me, haha buat ape pun kat Aina dia tak marah? Nak kata korang tak suka Aina, tak pulak. You seek me out when you need a listening, sympathetic ear, hell I give you two ears! Undivided attention, especially now. We have fun, you guys are good solid friends, you support me, but haih. Most times you have fun at my expense. Seronok kan buat lawak ejek Aina, semua orang gelak? Seronok kan? I know it is. You guys have made that fact clear to me all this time. I'm happy that you guys are happy, truly. But you guys don't seem to care that it is at my expense. When I'm tired and want to have a quiet time to myself, the bullying begins the joke begins. And I fake the smiles and fake the laughters and I fake the fun you think I feel. I stress the fact that I didn't want to hurt your feelings, that is why I pretend.

Sape suruh baik sangat, semua orang boleh pijak kepala? My fault for trying to be patient? Ask yourself if you would want the same treatment that I received; your achievements belittled, your fears being made fun of, your aspirations for the future ridiculed, your attempts at things laughed at. Think, just think. Who on earth wants that? If you are my friend, why can't you treat me nicely? Do you require people to fill a feedback form, How do you feel about the current treatment you are receiving from me?, lepas tu baru nak tukar perangai?

Perlu ke semua tu? Think of the consequences of your actions. "Do unto others what you want others to do to you." And I don't mean just for me. Haha again, my (calm) rant is over, thank you very much. I think when I have children, menangis mereka dengar lecture macam ni. :-)